Before I speak about my crush, I should say that my job had a lot to do with my absence. Working in the educational field can be very draining and consuming, so the time that I usually devote to working on my blog has been considerably cutback (I’ll try hard to not let that happen any time soon!). Even though my job is completely exhausting, it is also very rewarding. So gratifying that I’ve been thinking about going back to school to brush up on my skills. Doing this will allow me to be an effective ESL teacher, and it will provide me with essential educational tools.
It’s been so long since I’ve been a student; I hope that I have the energy to concentrate on what the instructor is saying! We’ll see.
The other reason why I haven’t been online is that I’ve been interested in someone. I’ve liked him for some time now, and I have been trying to let him know that I was feelin’ him. I wasn’t obvious in any way—I just started to call him more often and I was extra chatty whenever I was around him. Yes, I turned into a giddy schoolgirl!
I guess I was a little nervous in liking someone again. I was in an unhealthy relationship for way too long; which made me avoid relationships at all costs. Having feelings for someone was a little too scary for me to handle. But when I noticed that he was sorta feelin’ me too, I tried to keep calm and take everything in stride.
I don’t know what’s going on with us, but I will try not to get too panicky. We hang out, call each other on a somewhat regular basis, and we joke around like we are back in high school, BUT we haven’t actually come out and said, “I like you.” So I don’t know if he in fact likes me. We just flirt with one another and that’s it.
So now, I must sit back and wait (very impatiently) to see what happens next.
I’ll keep you posted!
peace & love,