it's been a while since I blogged, huh?
I thought that I would slow it down a little bit and talk about something that has been on my mind for some time now…….being single.
I used to love the freedom of being single- being able to flirt with anyone that I wanted, being able to go out with my friends without having to consider someone else. I know that it sounds a little selfish, I just meant that if a friend asked me to go out at a moment’s notice, as a single girl, I wouldn’t have to think twice about it—I would just go.
But back to the main topic of today's blog, lately I’ve been feeling a little lonely. I’ve been missing the special moments that you share with that special someone. Holding hands with your man, kissing your man, him kissing you, getting dirty e-mails from your man in the middle of the day, just to remind you how much he misses you. Damn, I miss being in a relationship.
Even though I haven’t been in a relationship for quite some time, I did crush on someone recently. I felt a little guilty about it because he wasn’t exactly single. I felt even worse when I realized that he liked me too. But, instead of giving into my animal instincts, I chose to get over my crush and leave the man alone!
So now I am back where I started—single and looking. I have to admit that I haven’t been actively looking. Being shy has definitely been a hindrance in finding that special guy. I'm afraid to approach a guy. I much rather that he come up to me and make his "move". Mind you, I've heard some of the dumbest lines ever! A very, very, very old man (he must be at leat 75 years old) told me that he liked the way that I looked and wanted to see what I looked like in a short skirt??!! kinda freaky, no??
A friend suggested that I try speed dating and another friend wants to set me up. I think for the time being I will try to put myself out there mentally and physically. Either that, or I will watch Love jones again for the millionth time.